It was another sad night that i went through last night.
It's just an issue about not understanding each other.
Im starting to feel tired staying happy in all these sad, pressuring, pathetic situations.

This post is not going to be about my whining and complains.
Its how im trying to handle my life.
I slept well last night. You must know this one fact about me
I sleep when
1. im hungry
2. im sad
3. im having serious major critical headache
4. whenever i wan
5. and of course when im sleepy.
so even when im sad, i actually manage to sleep well. I always pray before i go to sleep n voila! the next day i felt happy n even when i know things havent change much, i felt lighten and i may start to fix things right.

~I can however still work under pressure. Im not sure when and how im capable of doing that. But one thing im sure, im still under pressure.

~Im glad my friends talk to me when they have problems. It kills me when I cant understand my own besties. Talk to me. for some reason, when listening to their problems it actually help me to forget all my problems.

~My blog has been idle for HOW long? Ive been keeping all the negativity inside of me and worrying about how to let it out.
-I dont have the time to jamm. Thanks to the silly weather (i cant jamm during lightning).
-le parkour is not really my thing nowadays. After I seriously injured my knee parkour is definately going to be the last option to relax. And what is it to relax when you're actually making yourself tired.

And then.. thats when i realized the presence of my blog. My blog was untouched for quite some time.

I dont want to be bothered by people these few days.
I miss my real mum. shes so far away and im going to be unreachable for months.
I miss fitria
and im definitely going to miss my love one.
~mia for being my bestfriend all the while
~huney for being the sunshine while it rains
~fatt, youre my love
~apeace, faii n the rest. its a pleasant thing that i met you guys.
and of course ash and the rest my bff's.
~ ohh.. im not gonna be able to chat with milly for three months. T.T

Its pathetic that i have this difficulty to cry whenever i want wherever i want.
I hate crying in my heart.
It hurts.

p.s : im not emo. emo is not my thing. Im just sad.. sadd thats all.

Labels: My Wave Of Life