Today, was the happiest day of my life. The post that I, in the first place wanted to post to my blog today. But , my wish wasn't fulfilled. Obviously, if it was fulfilled, the title would have been it but it wasnt it. The title says it all.
The agenda that happened today was from not so good to worst. Lets see what I went through today.
I planned to wake up early today.
I planned to go to the post office and buy the ptptn stamps for my ptptn business.
I planned to go to the bank to redeem a new card as I forgotten my atm's password.
I planned to finish my business math homework in the library within 11:00am till 1:50pm ( 2 hours and 50 mins).
I planned to finish my english homework as well.
I planned to meet up with Effy to discuss our assignment for CTU subject.
I planned to compose a new song with my new found melody.
And last but not least I planned to go to the gym.
So far that I can remember, these are all, the only plans that I had planned for today.
We planned, God decide. Have you ever read/heard this phrase somewhere? Well, I had. And this is what happened to me today. Everything that I planned went to the wrong place.
I ended up,
I woke up late and still managed to procrastinate.
I changed my plan on going to the post office because the post office was packed with something called human beings.
I dint go to the bank eventhough I was infront of the place. I just can't bear waiting hours and hours just to get a new atm card. I guess that can wait.
I ended up using the time to bank and post office to eat breakfast with fatt. -.-”
I did not even finish 1 math question because I was distracted and I did not know how to do the tricky question and now I wondered why cant I start with a simple one if the one I tried was too hard.
I copied my english subject task instead of doing it myself. =P
I argued with Mr Minit with really harsh word saying he doesnt have a dick all because he said I was UGLY.
(why do he have to be harsh from the start when Im being nice? F. you)
Effy promised to meet up in the library right after noon class, but she wasnt there and I cant do my assignment.
And after all that happened, I did not have the mood to sing song or strum the uke/guitar.
Going to the gym? I forgot that I am having my period. Say goodbye to Mr G for today.
I felt so shitty right now, I'm all moody, I felt exhausted and at the same time I'm really famished. The only food that able to go and steal my appetite away is the nasi ayam penyek. And unfortunately for me, fatt was too tired to send me there and I guess that just made my day more shitty.
Have I stated that I just know that people wasnt treating me like a girl. Mr V just said “ you're more like a guy” and mr P just love to step on my shoes. I dont know if I obviously dont have big boobs and ass or is it really me that behave like a guy?? seriously like a fucking GEE YOU WHY!!! is that it??
Im sorry, that im not like any other girls who act so girly and pretty. Im sorry that Im boyish in my own way. Im sorry is my way of having fun is not playing with my hair, doing make up, shopping and gossip all around.
Is that what these guys aspect me to say? KISS MY ASS. So what if I dont like to do make up? So what if I dont dress in tight shirts and jeans? So what if I dont talk in a soft – you – can – hear – nothing tone. And so what if I love to be myself?
I dont walk slowly, I dont like to gossip about guys or girls or she male he male, I dont do those GEDIKS stuff. And if you ask me, I can be the most gorgeous girl if I really want. I can put on my eyeliner and with just that natural face I can look way way pretty if compared to those plastics out there.
I can wear my highest heels matched up with my above knee length skirt and just normal, my size shirt and walk elegantly without whining my foot getting blister and all stuff?
Do you guys know that those gediks girl arent wearing heels? They arent acting ladylike? Do you think they have the talent like me who can do extreme sports like parkour and do you think they play multiple instruments like me and do you human with dick out there think most girls nowadays can cook?? DO YOU?? And yet you think you have the right to compared me with such typical girls. Oh please guys, I now know who my real friends are. Tell me, if its a sin to be pretty, and a sin to keep a low profile, what shall I do then?
Thanks to these guys, you just added more shitts on my shittiest day.
The end.
The library is the new place to cry, or quitely whine.
Labels: Crap~