Herm... *sigh* Is it really true bout what people say when you are sixteen it's time for SWEET SIXTEEN??? *sigh* I guess it's just a lie...

I just broke up with my boyfriend yesterday... Aduh... I'm not sure whether it's a good news or bad news...

If it's BAD news:
Well, I lost a very caring, romantic, funny, and adorable but annoying guy whom I love so much... And that means there wont be a guy who will care for me more than he does... *SIGH* Stupid la me... Sometimes I keep on thinking why do I want to let go this guy??? I believed he loves me more than I do... oh well... Nasi dah jadi bubur. There's no way we can convert the porridge to rice... No way!!!

If it's GOOD news:
Erm, I'm single again... Free to flirt around, enjoy with my friends and I don't have to control my attitude to my boyfriends *refer to my besties of course* hihihi...

As you guys know, life isn't easy is it? Gosh... I really don't want to lose these important people in my life... My boyfriend? Erm.. May be we are still to young to understand love, may be his not meant for me and his not my prince charming, or maybe we just don't belong to each other. His CINDERELLA is still outside there waiting for him and my Mr right is still out there seeking for me. But that's all only MAYBE...

*sigh* MAYBE doesn't really mean anything. I wont like the same person and I wont reconsider to ON with them again, the only thing that I'll reconsider is whether I should searched for other guys? or just stay single and enjoy being in that status and I'll always pick the 2ND choice... That's the path to happiness FOR NOW though I do realize I have to get married SOON. And that SOON is probably when I'm 29 or 30? That's not too old I guess? I got lots of lots of LOTS of things to accomplish before I marry a guy. Who doesn't have ambitions or dreams right?

I lost a guy, that's OK but losing a friend? Nah! I don't think so... I wont accept that. Today I received a letter... I mean a replied from Eilyn... I decided to wrote to her asking her to read what I've written about her and she did reply me and I'm so glad. She told me she miss me... whee pee!!!

Now I'm still wondering whether I should keep the presents from HIM or NO? But how about the key chain he bought for me? I love that key chain SO much... But......................... Haiz... I'm Sorry.. I think I should Just keep the picture of it and returned it to the owner...


Is it too cruel not to keep the stuff too? Argh.. hard decision leh... but actually breaking up is no big deal I guess unless we're deeply fall in love, and the truth is I did BUT it just fades away... JinJin,.... Uby I'm really sorry ya... I know I don't have the right to call you UBY and all I can say is sorry... Gosh!! I always remembered the song The Apologize by ONE REPUBLIC, it reminds me how cruel I am. So I guess I better dedicate this song for you, JinJin.. and again.. I'm really sorry... It's beyond my control...



AS IF!!! sorry if I am an angel to you and all of a sudden I'm turning myself into a bitch... Well I guess I am a bitch after all... A cute bitch at least. lolx... *sigh* just joking I don't think BITCH is a suitable nick for me anyway... Why don't we call them bastard instead...

really piss off with life!!!

Labels: My Wave Of Life