happy chinese new year to those who are celebrating *cleaning dusts here*
my updates 1. I joined the debate team after seniors keep pushing me to join, lecturer encouraging, sister recommended, and my ownself who wanted to join so badly in the first place.
2. became the golden Hornbill drumline first president.
3. Im going to tutor my tutees the account subject.
*sigh*
whats in my mind, whats in my mind, whats in my mind
a stranger stabs me infront, a friend stabs me in the back, a boyfriend stabs me in the heart, but with bestfriends we only poke each other with straws or pinky =)
Greetings to all dear readers, Selamat Hari Raya to all and maaf zahir batin.
I'm not really into the 'raya' preparations this year.
the stress.
the mess.
the noise.
money flying everywhere.
funny, everyone else seems to be enjoying it but i am not.
Started before the hols, i had this really serious stomach pain. Been skipping several classes due to it.
Fortunately, tests and quizzes were done during the time and all I wanted that time was to stay with my mates in campus and I really really really wish not to come home.
Responsibilities comes first before desires.
I know that it is a must to come back home for Raya. And so I, with the heaviest footsteps, go on for the journey. And while I was at it, my stomach still gave me those unpleasant feelings.
Throwing up several times, having the symptoms of diarrhea, I know my fast was void.
And yeah, I was having my red flag moments with the unwanted disease.
I myself wondered why is my heart not celebrating this festive season.
*tik tok tik tok*
even after several days, the only thing that gets better was my physical condition. Thats all.
I guess my head's in a different place.
Its not thinking about the festivities, not at all. And how I wish the holidays would pass on faster and I can moved back to campus and go through exams sooner then ahead with my semester break vacation.
I was never able to solve the Rubic'sCube when I first got it last year. It just seem too complicated. Get one square in position and all the rest are messed up.
There's this silly thought that ever popped in my head : unscrew it and hoping to put it back together *well, if the Rubic'sCube is mine I can guarantee I'll try that" Anyway dont do that. serious.
It's called cheating. CHIT TING.
Fatt taught me, Fitria taught me as well. But there's this confession I must say.
I dont know why I got attracted to Rubic'sCube,
I ever wonder ~ is it the colours? ~ is it because it looked like the cute cube from transformers only this one is a little bit more colourful ~ is it because cubes are cute ~ or is it because Im just attracted to it with no reasons. After all, I havent been able to solve it YET.
*giggles*Im in love with Rubic'sCube but sadly I dont know how to solve it Its like Loving a guy that i can never understand. But still I killed times and hurt my brain cells to understand it. I've tried hard to solve it but I keep on failing. Its like i cant understand him even how hard I tried. But, Its not impossible to solve a Rubic'sCube.
So i believe I'll understand a guys heart if I just allow myself to listen to them instead of them listening to me ... Perhaps its not about trying hard, maybe i just need to understand the method to solve it. What goes around comes around isnt it?
Im gettingiller.. haha .. *whats that word?* from my sore throat to flu now im having fever. I was sleeping since noon till evening.
I was sweating and my whole shirt was wet... I love sweating :)
back to the Rubic'sCube... Please proceed. It seems life is like a Rubic'sCube.
There are so many facets to life. And trying to keep them all in balance is frustrating. If you turn one face to get the reds together you unbalance the other sides of blue. yellow, white, etc.
People often have choices in life, so what ever you do don't cheat.
There are anologies and method to solving a Rubic'sCube can be applied to life.
First you start out with a simple cross on one of the faces.
Start out with God taking control of one of a part of your life. Don't expect Him to get your life all perfect in one day.
Then slowly build up the parts that can be moved to make one layer.
Solve one area of priority first in your life.
Remember that the center cubes do not actually move; only the corners and the edges. Some people get confused by this.
Learn to recognize and accept the things that you cannot change, and the things that you can change. We have to accept the things we cannot change, the courage to change the things we can, and the wisdom to know the difference."
Certain moves require you to memorize the moves. Follow the directions from people who have done it before. Professor Rubik took 1 month to solve his own invention. You can do it in 1 week by learning it from others instead.
Get expert help when in trouble. You don't have time to work it out on your own.
~my brain is getting better ~
I love sudokuu
Tina ling love carpenters so much.. ooh how i wish Karen Carptenter is still alive.God's will..
ive been trying to play carpenters songs with my uke.. Its not as easy as it seems. and yeah, im going to clean the room before fitria come back home. dont worry. I just had bad days going on lately.
my uke my uke my uke my uke..i wish i can play mamula moon.
*rofl was talking about that song with milton the whole time*
ohh, i have no life.. heheh.. what are you reading at???
Dont you have a life? You dont . hahah
atleast i have a lifeless life..
boo you.
hari ini sungguh cantek~ I luv Rainbow
Tina ling ling ling
batuk sakit demam tak dapat nyanyi.. and everything not nice
rindu fatt
Well, im glad when Huney made the statement that im not the talking tummy. *yeah i knw she watched white chicks* But my elder sis would probably stick to the old saying. TINA THE TALKING TUMMY!
Its been ages since I last blog. Damn!. *cleaning the dust and spidey webs around*
I'm an eater. Well, this phrase means i eat a lot and 80% of my routines are something related to food.
~Daily meals include breakfast, early lunch, lunch, afternoon tea, dinner and also midnight snack* Yes, i eat 6 meals per day. Just like jolie!
The most important meals of the day
~I don't watch movie WITHOUT snacks.
Im a movie holic. So tell me what's my thing to do? honey butter popcorn is absolutely the purrfect choice
~im half fruitarian and vegetarian Yes.. and so I do recognize myself as a person who likes to eat healthy foods especially when it comes to the vitamins! yay!
Stairways to healthyness
~sweet toothed. Yes, i love candies, and marshmallow. and when haribo arrived from germany I'll finish it before anyone else snatch it from me. *grrr* p/s i hate chocolates. Damn!! i hate it when they do sticking on your teeth and make you be afraid to smile WIDELYY *teehee*
~food food food! Yes, I do cook. im not conservative and Im not like those bimbos out there being afraid to stay in the kitchen. I cook! and i love to cook. and yes....! i love guys who can cook.
yes, i do heart jamie oliver
how I stay fit? * i knw this went beyond the topic. *winks* ~ i dont really stay in shape all the time? There are times when people commented : Tina, you're healthier! (in malay saying: ktk makin sihat* a polite way of saying im FAT)
slim? eww hell no. skinny? my arse, I prefer the term *ef ai tee*
thanks . Seriously. Due to SPM *last year* and graduation of high school. I no more involve myself in any sports or fitting activities.
and therefore, im not fit anymore. But thanks to this*wad i actually wanna say* im getting slimmer.
After all these years of eating, when i reached the age of 17 years and 7 months old, I just found out im allergic to seafood and certain foods.
I was having vacation with my lovely super hot extragavanza hot ex model mom. Sorry shes not available for any guys.
yes, she is a very hot for mom with 3 kids. now backk off grrrr
DAMN! she keep feeding me with anything she can afford to buy. Cheese, candies, cheese, seafoods, cheese, milk, cheese, biscuits, cheese and moreeee cheeese!
Then, came the sad thing where I fall sick after 3-4 years (major sickness not like flu or cold or normal headaches) staying healthy.
That night, i was having major headache, and i started to vomit. If its not mistaken i vomited for 5-6 times and pooed for 4-5 times in 5-6 hours. DAMN!. I was severely ill when i thought of opening the window and jump off from there. Geez I changed my mind when I recalled its only the third floor.
Yes, I have problems with my tummy *TINA THE TALKING TUMMY*.
From that day onwards, I lost my lovely appetite and I started to dislike meat. I eat almost all the time with a very super slow muching speed.
Its the first time I feel that eating a packet of mee goreng segera as a painful thing to be accomplished. it took me almost an hour to finish it. seriously its the not so nice thing that ever happened to me. .. And now, if compared to some friends, I end up being the last to finish the foods on plate.
~unrelated stuff~ p.s : Everyone *heart* my cooking. Fatt just doesnt wanna admit it. DAMN!
Adidas? NO! It has nothing to do with it. What Im going to post today is undescribeable with words. I was exploring the youtube for hip hop dance routine. And yeah I saw one. *actually more* Its an old but cool one here. TADA!!! Asian can dance better than Ang Mo.
Oh, I got a lil bit Bored with basic hip hop routines nowadays. And when I was looking for contemporary piece, I found this one clip where a couple dance a contemporary piece beautifully. It sounds normal isn't it? Not odd at all? Well wait till you see it yourself. Even those who don't give a damn about dance will bother to watch this.
Its inspiring how these 2 people continue to do what they love. To them Imposible is nothing. The girl lost her arm in a car accident while the guy lost his leg while he was young. Its very inspiring to continue thing that we love. The passion that's inside of them showed.
Its exactly 48 minutes after I saw the body. He went away. His spirit went off leaving his body unmoved. John died. After living with me for 1 year+. I miss him. He’s soo big and he’s soo cute. Yeah I do love him. May the 100cm tall german shepherd rest in peace. Cek, John passed away but Judy is still in good shape.
Fiey. Happy birthday yea. You’re the special guy today.. Have a sweet 20 =) Mia.. My dog died… he’s eyes was red. I noticed something was different about him. I was about to feed him milk and give him vitamin… : (
he can push you and kill you.
I met this girl in WATER MARGIN ONLINE. Her name is Azlin. She's a cute and surprisingly, she amazed me with her amature shuffling. I think she's way better than some girls in kuching. She's a new learner and she dance well.. cheers Azlin.. whatever you're up to, once you love it, don't let anything block your way...
I'm sick and tired or people asking the same question over and over again. Wonder how they never get bored.
Aku sudah berpunya.
A statement that I’ll reply. It doesn’t matter who is that.
Only god know. Whether I’ m single or not it doesn’t matter, cause I am definitely not so into guys currently, few bad relationships made me realized it's such a waste of time flirting around, love, It’ll just come and look for me by itself. So what I got to do is just wait and see. While waiting I’m always ON to observe the hotties out there. “Hi guys, I’m tina :P”
I love Him with all my heart. My slavery is only for him.
Ash, my dear, someone thought you’re my boyfie, but forever you’re my love one and Mia too One three Hill remember???.
Apish, dear someone thought you’re my boyfie too but yeah I’ll be your girlfriend close friend forever and you’ll remain to be my best silat mate ever.
Who it doesn’t matter cause I know He always be with me even when I’m down, happy, alone, He’s always there. The LOVE for him will never fade away.
I love you Allah S.W.T
Next month I’ll try my best to complete fasting. Those delicious looking foods nang suka mencabar kesabaranku.
And btw, Edison Chen will always be My 2nd Love. Love tidak bermaksud gerek. Gosh, I have to accept the fact that Edison is not available anymore.
Lelaki diluar sana, please I am not the hottest girl in the world. But, if you’re rich, handsome, kind, loving, caring, understanding, smart, and loyal Im here: p wahahahaha
what a cam whore?
p/s : officially done my paperwork at 7:59 p.m :D * free~~ at last!* Love yogurt
Expressing depression? Today just doesn’t seem right. Fiey, thanks for the birthday wish, dint expect you would send me something sweet. And thanks to Kushairy for the wish too.. And sorry for what I’ve done that make you so uncomfortable. I never intend to do so, seriously.
I should stop being upset, it’s my day today, my Thursday, my birthday and eventually its MY day.
Mr. L, you dint do anything neither do I. No apologize please since there’s no mistake. I hurt my ears yesterday. I was on phone for more than half day, means more than 12 hours.
Guys, talking to you people cheered me up. Yesterday was soo bittersweet. Indeed :D You know what??? Alright!!! I'm depressed!! I'm feeling sooo shit!! I just don’t feel right. I thought my day would be great. I guess I just have to go through another day and hope for a better day tomorrow. Cheers guys… thanks for the moment last night people. And ash, thanks for saying you love me.. I love you too :D Bubble… you’ve made my day… I love you too *I’ll treasure the chance you’ve given me. And Mia.. don’t feel bad bout today.. I'm not feeling right too… Puiko.. wo hen xiang ni ye ai ni… ni chen de dui wo hen hao… stop watching horror movies!!!!
You know, I’ve heard lots of stories going on. I'm getting tired of school and really wish I don’t have to go to school. Its like a piece of shit and crap doing stupid homework and getting lecture by the teachers who grumble too much? School is so tiring! The reasons students not getting enough sleep = school work!+tuition= hectic! Tiredness! Really tired with the school environment… can’t those GAI people just get out of my face!! You guys curse??? I wanna curse like you’ll never know who’s the real me… I do curse! I do get annoyed and disturbed! I do for your information! I do… I'm a human being too for god sake… Stop wearing like a piece of crap. I wont bother if you don’t bother with my life… I'm getting pissed and fed up with all the hussy and stupid way of life to some teenagers… Know I understand why some people just cant stand bothering people’s business, it really annoyed me. Yeah I know its not my life no my business, slap me for being such a stupid crap talking so much about other people in my blog, mentioning so much about them during my birthday.. Birthdays are just ordinary days where you expect to get lots of wishes for friends isn’t it?? Taik babi… IDTS. Horrible day! Ignore me, and if you finish reading this, thank you for paying attention to my mumblings.
You know!!! Todays is the worst day of my life.. I hate birthday...Birthday sucked like hell!!!
I don't see any rainbow anymore...
All I can see are raindrops falling on the ground...
falling on my head...
There's no moonlight during the night,
when I needed some light.
None... none... none...
I feel like killing myself today
Im not just depressed, im stressed Im unhappy!!!
I felt like stupid idiotic girl ever :(
Please, let me be alone.
sometimes i just wish the whole world would dissapear
Ooh... I feel like blogging... OK. It's been awhile I dint blog... INDEED~
OK.. what's on my mind right now??? No content for today post.
I just feel like blogging cause I want to but I can't think of anything interesting today...
We all know the main reason... Holiday is not always about fun... It sometimes end up with boredom ..
Alright, *sigh* what time I woke up today???
jam 12 : 46 p.m if not mistaken?? I got insomnia every Thursday & Friday ever since I got banned from going for Silat practise after the competition... *haiz*
Exactly at that time I'll recall the times I'm suppose to be at GYM practising and fooling around disturbing those cute boys.. *whoops* I mean my mates...
We're not ready yet.. Still wondering what pose???
OKAY!!! Everybody.. buat Cakar!! except me.. peace.. CUTE~~~
Today is silly..
Yeah.. I took a few pictures wondering how does my smile look?? still maintain?? I noticed in every pic of my smile.. My smile look exactly the same..! exactly..... It's filled with my accent.. the flavor I've added in make in more sweet.. Oh!! hahaks
I'm not acting cute.. Sorry. I'm acting dumb..but obviously.. I look cute.. :x
Tomorrow nvr die?? Nah.. My smile never die : )
Kids, don't forget to brush your teeth so you can smile like this one here...
Called Mia straight away after I'm awake... cancel out hang out today... Disappoint Arse...
Argued with Didi today.. OK we fought as usual.. Amazingly after I've join Silat.. I'm a better fighter.. I just love his look when he fall after i twist his leg.. Hi.. bitches.. I'm always on when you guys wanna fight kea?? I felt confident!! Ding Dong!!!
I was wondering, I was not feeling well lately...Due to some irrelevant reasons.
Yap, I've been silly within these 2-3 days. What was I looking for and what was in my mind?
I have no idea myself. Still seeking for the answers. Too many questions to be asked yet no answers could be found. I'm not despair... I really really need some time alone. Without any persuasion from friends and definitely NO disturbance from anonymous.
The battle that people keep talking about. Should I go?... ASS told me he wanted me to go to support him and be with him since he won't have fun without he's besties by his side. Huney wanted me to come too cause she wanted to meet me and I really wanted to meet her too. She was more excited when her abang is coming. But I think Hafiy is coming... * I THINK*. And meeting up with JC and Ah Bro and etc...
Maybe I should just go. I don't wanna miss out the chance to meet this great friends I know recently. It's not about popularity, it's about having new friends and to maintain the friendship. Please don't be friend with me if you tend to flirt with me or something and then ignore me. I'm serious... OUCH!!!*palak hang*
I told myself I would just study in the library with Huney. I have to study for my commerce since the teacher didn't really teach due to noise pollution in the class. Then I'll just go to the lake listen to my Ipod and look at those ducks and relax myself and let those people have fun doing what they like. :D It's that simple and I really hope it'll be that simple too.
I am soo silly that I've thinking too much and whining too much and I really regret that. Haha everything that happen comes with a reason and every reason comes with another reasons and so on and so on. :D I've been told that I should always keep positive thoughts and cry out loud when I'm really frustrated. I've tried but I've failed. BUT, I've found my own way to release all these tensions, since I can't cry, I try to smile instead even though I really look dumb in a smile that seems so helpless and filled with sorrow.
Life's unpredictable, my quote that I always remember in mind. Stop thinking about the past. I learned a lot of things and I'll learn new things everyday. Yesterday was history, tomorrow is mystery... Something that I've learned from Rachel so credit to her :D
Some one I've known for maybe a week? Can't really recall how long but I remembered the first day we met was 3rd Feb. *counting* It's 10 days *chuckles* He's older than me a few years and currently still studying. : )
He is someone I could confide in because he is very understanding and also fun to be around with as for his care. The first day I saw him I was really afraid of him. He looked serious and I don't really like him but hating people I don't really know is not one of things I love do so, ignoring him was all I did.
I'm not really sure what's his hobbies are but I do know he loves to dance ALOT and he dance really niceeee and he got his own style and a scent that make him really charming and attractive when he dance. So that makes him gifted. His passion in dancing make me adored him more. He can even write beautiful poems that rhymes. Oh yeah! I know he like girls alot! Especially pretty girls *gigles* He ever mention about a brazillian martial art - Capoeira if I'm not mistaken. I was amazed that he like that type of martial art. I din't even know Capoeira exist. -.-'
Everyone hate something... Im not sure what my sayang dislike but I know he dislike something. Just that I havent figure it out YET... * sigh* He was not in a good mood when I asked him so erm... I know he hate negative stuffs for sure cause he loves positive. LoLz
I would say he is not the most good-looking guy but he is cute and adorable in certain ways that make me attracted to him and he groomed himself very well. He admire those who can groom themselves because that shows these people really appreaciate what God has given them. He is a very positive guy and packed with interesting attitude. I know he won't like thoughtless persons and he thought me new things everyday. Meaningful things that inspired me. Some stuffs that helped me alot recently : )
He influenced me in a good way and he seems to handle some things maturely and is not afraid to be himself. *another reasons why I like him* He is very confident and is a good role-model. I keep missing him ever since he took my heart away. *his not a thieft* dn worry. Lolz. And because of that he inspired me to do things properly.. He make me feel confident and even how bad I look like I still feel confident adn good about myself. Judging people by how they look like or how they groomed themselves is not me. What he said make me realized a lot of things. Every night before sleep I'll read our msn conversation and watch his perfromance during BOYINATION 6. I'm yours by Jason Mraz make me think about him all the time. These days I really miss him alot. 24/7. Some how I really appreaciate I met him in my life.. Really thankful to God Almighty. Alhamdulillah I terjumpa orang nie*chuckles* I appreaciate every one around me. Une and Mia also. And I of course am proud to have him in my life. *hug*
A song I've composed long time ago... Dedicated to some one I love so much... cause I'm really falling for him. Some one I care so much... cause I don't want him to be unhappy and some one I won't forget... cause he's a sweet memory to me.. : D
TENTANG SESEORANG
Ada seorang teman yang buat ku jatuh hati,
Tanpa diriku menyedari.
Jantung ini berdegup dengan kencang sekali,
Apabila dia dekat disisi.
Senyum Mu, gurau Mu,
begitu menawan hati
karna dirimu yang istimewa...
Tanpa Mu, Disisi..
Terasa sunyi sekali,
karna diriku telah jatuh hati...
Apalah diriku? Tanpa dirimu..
katakan kepada ku yang kau inginkan ku...
Aku inginkan kamu melebihi segalanya
jangan biarkan aku menanti dirimu...
*whisper*
seorang teman yang buat ku jatuh hati
tanpa diri ku menyedari...
End*
really looking forward to renovate the bass part of the song...
